While driving down the Federal Highway today, I felt a little turned off by everything on the radio. I feel uneasy when I listen to songs with noisy electric guitar backgrounds. Just like a long electric noise, not like single notes, you know what I mean? Electric strumming? Like one continous Zhhhhhhnnng. Ah shadefakup.
As I was driving, thoughts started permeating my head as it usually does when my mouth is closed for too long (when the radio is on, it opens to sing along).
It’s no surprise that I started thinking of Chee Kiang and how we’ve come to where we are. Like a silly girl, I started smiling to myself and thought, “Hey, my thoughts are quite entertaining.” And so entertained them, I did.
I hope nobody has dirty thoughts at this point.
We’ve actually been living in the same town for 13 years before he left to Singapore for his studies. Only THEN I decided, okay, I’m ready to be in a relationship with him. That’s how we are for the last 5 years. Well, technically we’ve been together for 3.5 years now.
Let’s eliminate the first 3 and 4 years of our lives as I was living in Petaling Jaya and he was up in Penang with his grandparents. We both started living in Subang Jaya in 1990.
While I was attending kindergarten in USJ2, crying when boys stepped on my feet and playing in the sandpit during recess, he was about 2km away in SS19, attending kindergarten with the likes of Nicholas Chan and Chew Sher Lyn. Perhaps we walked pass each other in Subang Parades on weekends while holding onto our parents’ hands, not knowing what we would become one day.
When he attended JMC classes at Yamaha Subang Parade from 1991-1992, I was perhaps sitting there, waiting for my mother to be done teaching a class. We probably saw each other and still, never knew what we would one day become.
Then came primary school and a total of 5 wasted years were spent not knowing each other. Both schools were separated by a single fence and we probably led very different lives. He was the haughty-totty assistant head prefect, going around carrying out orders yet afraid to lose his best friends who were particularly naughty boys (NAMELY CHEW KAY HONG..haha) and I, a goodie two-shoes prefect who carried a UPSR karangan book around to make me feel more at ease with the impending UPSR examinations. Perhaps when the children from both primary schools spilled out into their parents’ cars, we might have crossed paths, not knowing what we would one day become.
Maybe after school once, he defied his school’s communist-ish rules about not crossing over to Titian Emas and Kett Star, two extremely famous stationary shops which catered to both SRSS19 Subang Jaya and SRJK(C) Lick Hung. Perhaps he saw me choosing some stickers there while he bought an ice lolly, crossing paths again, not knowing what we would one day become.
When we finally entered the same school grounds in form1, we sort of noticed each other as how you would with most of your peers whose names you have yet to know. He knew me as that fair and skinny(ok I add myself one, but I was really all bones back then) librarian girl and I always saw a really really really tall (before everyone else had growth spurts) librarian dude with the Lee 911 hair style from the Chinese Stream. If only I knew what we would one day become.
I am however, thankful for that entire year in form2 where we knew of each other’s school-society inclinations and had more things in common to talk about (after meeting in the library while on duty early n the year). He was a die hard Leo member and I was a die hard Interactor. The on-going feud between both clubs never deterred us from being friendly to each other.
As form3 rolled around, we were both given the same projects and duties in our own clubs. We both handled the Valentine’s Project and forced each other to buy something from our respective clubs for each other. He made me buy him some candies from his club and I made him buy me a Message In A Bottle from my club. He wrote an “I love you!” on my card but I knew he was being silly back then and it really meant nothing. If only we knew what we would one day become.
We all know what happened in the middle of form3. No need for me to elaborate. For the noobs, read here.
Upon returning to form4, perhaps someone up there knows what we would become someday, we were put in the same class.
While I enjoyed him as much as I do now back in form4, I was an out right bitch to him in form5.
Over less than year, he left for Singapore to pursue his studies and I realised that I actually really do miss him.
I’ve been missing him ever since. 🙂
Which I had all those years to be around him more than what I am able to afford now.
Long distance sucks major balls.
10 thoughts on “I Must Be Missing Him Too Much”
My name is Edward Skading, from Selangor, Malaysia. My parents once told me that to have a happy and long life, you must take great care about the food you consume. Always make sure itâ€™s clean, because cleanliness is next to godliness and I stuck to these values. As a result, when it comes to food, I always make sure what I eat is reasonably clean and safe. I also believe that everyone has the right for healthy, clean and safe food.
Recently, I exposed a horrible discovery concerning one of F&N Dairies (M) Sdn Bhd products on my weblog. It all started when my family and I was shocked to discover an abnormal brownish-blackish substance in a â€œTea Potâ€ brand, sweeten condensed milk. You can read the detail findings, correspondence letters, photos of the contaminated milk and the foul conditions of F&N Dairiesâ€™ plant, at my weblog http://consumersrighteousness.blogspot.com/.
Before exposing my horrible discovery, I have made a complaint to the company, but they are denying everything and not taking ownership of the product, even there is sufficient (justifiable) evidence that the milk is contaminated by mould and their plant have various foul conditions. I did not ask for any form of compensation, but I requested that the company be truthful, take ownership and accountable for their oversight, moreover rectify the problem and produce cleaner and safer food.
I also feel cheated when the company executive responded that they are not liable for damaged products in the marketplace. Looks like I had been scammed by the company after being a loyal customer for many years. If only I had been informed in advance that I was eating their products under unsecured risk and with no assurance, I would have immediately change brand. I would have chosen a company that is more reliable, accountable and concern about their customers.
As a consumer, I am sickened by the fact that we are not provided maximum protection from this sort of situations and whatever consumer rights we have now are defenceless. Even the consumer association NGO where I made a complaint (about 5 months ago) seems to be shying away because my grievances involve a corporate giant. With all of this going on, I feel my rights as a consumer had been deprived and now I am being forced to silence. Yes, the company is now suing me to shut up. They are using bullying legal tactics just because I am poor and powerless.
I believe, it is the responsibility of our whole society to protect the rights and benefits of consumers, and we should together stand up and uphold it. By doing so, together we will eventually improve the consumption environment and no big organisation dares to bully anyone supported by a unified consumer society and thatâ€™s why I am writing to you. I am seeking for your point of view and support towards a good cause campaign to protect and uphold our consumer rights.
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I love your post! So sweet! Don’t worry, LDR’s DO suck..but when you’re together in the future, it’ll all be worth it, right? 🙂
jo: i also didn’t bother to read..too long. hahaha *_* But that’s coz I’m rushing out too.. 🙂
Yeahhh:) hehe thanks. I believe in working towards a common goal.
“he left for Singapore to pursue his studies and I realised that I actually really do miss him.”
A bit like me la, only realise how much that person actually means to me when they are (about to be) gone.
I guess we’re really lucky, both of us. What if they (CK and HJ) met someone in singapore that can fit them like a neighbouring jigsaw piece? Then what of us?
jo: hehe like that english saying, “Absence makes the heart grow fonder.” We’ll find someone, eventually. 🙂 it’d suck, for awhile. But it’s perfect how everything has become our very own jigsaw puzzle. Right?
it’s so sweet… how u put it…..
so close, yet so far….
jo: haha thanks:) yeah, this whole ‘wasted’ feeling.
I need to cut down sugar intake for at least a month leh.
Always makes me happy to read lovey-dovey post. =D
jo: hahaha awww.. i like to write these things too. just don’t want to sound to sickening by being too much.
I always tell myself this. He’s doing this now for OUR future 🙂
You need to let the guy go chasing after his dreams, then build his career…then he can take good care of you for the rest of your life! ehhe
jo: haha i know that. but scared they run away forever.
I know all too well what that feels like 🙁
Hang in there. I believe that the two of you are strong enough to get through anything, Jo!
jo: 🙂 remember that common goal concept?
“and I, a goodie two-shoes prefect who carried a UPSR karangan book around to make me feel more at ease with the impending UPSR examinations.”
HAHAHHAA ME TOO!!! 101 karangan contoh hahahaha
this is a very very sweet post jolene =))))
jo: hahaha oh yes!! i think i have the same book:P thanks Su Ann!! 🙂 This is me in a romantic mood. *shy*
looks like im the only man posting here…hehehe. it’s been quite some time since i’ve read your blog. hmmmm…love. since im already happily married, here’s some advised..if i may. guys can be a tad bland in relationships sometimes. Guys communicate in a straight line, no u turns or roundabouts. This is a time of testing both for you and him. I was in a ldr…and ended up marrying her. You gotto have trust…the most important thingy. And do give him some room to breathe..(not too much *wink*). Guys tend to think it differently when it come to space. And yes, you’ll miss him terribly, that’s the whole point of loving someone. Heck! i miss my wife when im in KL for work…even if it is for only a week. Hope this helps….cheers and God bless.
jo: hahahha poor yee wei is a guy too actually. oh yes, i know about the straight line thing. =.= .. plenty of room to breathe my friend! People wonder why we don’t call each other as often as we should. I’m not one of those girls who call to report every single detail. and neither does he need to. 😉 hehee.. it’s very sweet of you..:) sounds like you have a happy marriage. I hope I will have one just like that someday.
yeah… long distance sucks major balls LOL!