That’s the feeling I’m talking about. The moment before you attempt to study for the first time in the semester(or module, as we call it here). This intense heaviness that tugs at your limbs, your backside and feet preventing you from devouring the first paragraph.
The studying momentum takes time to build. Attempting to study is like riding a bicycle. You peddle to pick up speed and if you stop, everything stops as well. The going down hill part goes well with this bicycle-studying metaphor too. If the paper is tomorrow, you’ll be studying really really fast. Trying your best to absorb everything. Sometimes, everything goes down hill too. Hehehe. That’s the Jolene’s emotional breakdown for those of you who remember the whole “I CAN’T DO PEMBEZAAN AND ADD MATHS IS IN TWO WEEKS!! WAHHHHHHHHHH” *add maths classmates at Mr.Chan’s house stares quietly as I become a blubbering mess*.
You keep telling yourself that you’ll start earlier, earlier, earlier! But somehow or other you will make sure that you push your work to the eleventh hour. When I was younger(like 16 years old, young), I’d scold and promise myself that I will work harder and in advance for the next exam. Doesn’t change a thing.
Strangely, in year one, I did study throughout the year. Like those studying after class kinda thing. Which is SO not me. But I thought, “Hello, this is university, must be like that ma”. It dwindled, dwindled and came year 3, I used my big toe to turn the printer on and finally printed the notes like a week before the exams. 3 more days to my first paper!
Granted that I only have like 17 topics to cover(and random dentistry topics from year2 that could be asked during the dentistry practical) but I am wondering if I should’ve started studying a month ago as how I usually do for my other exams?
Somehow or other, I will subconsciously allocate the amount of time for myself to study to ensure maximum stress. If I only had five topics to study, you can be sure that I’ll only attempt it the night before the exam.
WHY AM I LIKE THAT!!?
No point asking me to change, cannot change one.
The thing about studying last minute is that the materials are obviously fresher. But it’s also safer to know that you have time to cover all bases. So which one should it be?
I’m also quite happy that I made myself follow a study list ever since the end of year 1. I can estimate the amount of topics that I have to cover a day to make sure that I’m done studying before the exams. Imagine if you study a topic or two everyday and stop there because you’re just too tired to go on, imagine the horror if you realize that you’ve got like 40 over topics left to cover in five days. Actually, that’s nothing. Have you ever had to cover 15 topics in one day?! And one topic takes like….1 and a half hours to finish. God, year 2 was the ultimate nightmare. Finishing my allocated topics for the day(night?) when school buses rumbled past with the kids screaming at 7.30am.. then lying in bed, wide awake because it was too bright to sleep. Oh, the life of a student! The life of a LAZY student!
I need to chug along. Will someone please put a bullet through my Fluff Friend so that I don’t gamble so much to buy food for it to eat? Will someone please hack crunchyroll.com so that I have no more TVB dramas to stream? Will someone sneak into my room and delete my MSN messenger? Will someone please tie me down to my chair(but leave the hands so that I can turn the pages of my notes) and pry my eyes open with toothpicks?
Distractions. Oh, but don’t do anything to my blog OR Streamyx connection!(i will personally tear down the nearest TMnet building if my internet dies now) It’s my only therapy. 🙁