I am getting increasingly depressed.
Maybe I had too much fun back home and when all the fun things in life suddenly come to a halt, depression hits hard. This happened to me too when I was in national service. Suddenly, no more nights out. No more tv. No more internet.
I wish I have my own car here so I don’t have to rely on my housemates to do petty things like making my phoneline/internet arrangements/buying snacks whenever i want/eating whatever I want.
I fucking wish for my laptop back.
Lishen’s really kind to let me use her comp but she’ll need to use her desk sometimes too. I’ll be like blogging halfway and she’s like, “Sorry Jolene, I need to use the table.”
Of course I’m gracious about it. But I cannot help feeling so bloody down.
I go downstairs and face my (empty) study table and my stacks of notes that doesn’t look at all appealing.
What can make me happy again?
I mean I’ve had the good fortune to have a computer of my own and go online whenever I want, whatever time of the day. And talk to all those who are dear to me. Sigh.
I just lost all my mood when my computer died. No chocolate can undo this misery.
Why oh why oh why oh why.
My dad’s considering getting a hard disk from his friend’s older Acer model(older model than mine!!) and putting it in mine. I am of course fine with whatever he offers me but I got so depressed to learn that I was downgrading.
I hope my brother can put in a good word for me and throw in some computer lingo that will help me with my plight.
I will NEED an external hard disk after this whole fiasco. Backup everything so no shit dares to splatter on me again.
Oh, did I mention that my laptop will only be fixed in three weeks? And did I mention that my hostel contract comes to an end in four weeks?
And that we want to shift out? And that you have to tell telecom a week in advance to remove the phone line and streamyx to install in your new place?
OH. and that we don’t have a place to stay yet?