Sometimes You Need To Talk To Yourself

You know, I had a dream the other day.

It has to be the overdose of Geisha books that I’ve been indulging in(am currently reading Geisha, A Life by Mineko Iwasaki) or else I would not ever ever have had such a dream.

I dreamt that I was a geisha. Yup. Go ahead and laugh.

Or rather auditioning for some geisha position of sorts I don’t know. There were this bunch of business men in suits directing a whole line of geishas and they were pointing at us and sort of picking the geishas of their choices or rather directing the geishas to move here and there for I don’t know what.

Then after awhile, there was only me and another petite geisha left in line. A conceited business man looked at us and spoke to his assistant.

“OKAY! Ask that girl over there(he points at the petite geisha) and that refrigerator to come over here.”

He was pointing at me when he said refrigerator.

I felt SO fat and hurt in my dream. Hahahaha. Oh my god. And NO, I do not have some secret fetish to be a geisha..Nononononono.. What a stupid idea.. haha..

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Sometimes it sucks that I do not have a car here. However, it would not be practical especially when I go back for the holidays. Sigh. But it really sucks when you have to almost beg for rides from friends to do simple tasks like buying groceries and doing things like going to Telekom to settle some issues and etc.

And especially when everybody has their own dinner at home and some others have gone out with other friends and a few sweep happiness(translate to cantonese) ones want to go eat yucky stuff at the cafeteria. Which happens pretty often.

I looked into the bag of food my mother packed for me when I came back to Kedah. Ahah! Instant Nissin Noodles. At least something with soup and a bit of veggie. Even if the veggie is preserved.

🙁 Maybe I’ll go to the cafeteria after all.

I really miss home cooked food. The closest I can get to it is going to the nearby coffeeshops and without a car, I can’t do much. Walking takes 25 minutes. Cycling takes about 15 minutes. Maybe I should get a bicycle? Sigh and don’t forget, Sungai Petani is notorious for rapist, murderers and reckless drivers.

No, I’m not going to ask for a car because it’s not practical and furthermore I’m consuming so much for my education as it is. What do three people who live in a house and attend the same classes need three cars for? But they do not want me to pay for the petrol because then they’d feel indebted to fetch me around.

SIGH. I’m making a barter system with them. I will foot the internet bills every month as I hitch rides of them everyday.

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I just want to come home. If it wasn’t for the internet, I would be miserable. There’re not enough friends here. I only know 42 people here. Oh, if you want to count a few lecturers in, that’s fine.

THERE’S NO LIFE HERE. Kedah feels like a different era compared to home. It feels like a…..a…a..different..TIME ZONE. Argh. I’m serious. If it wasn’t for classes, there is NOTHING. Absolutely NOTHING to do here.

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You know why home is SO happening? Even though most of my closest and dearest are away.. but at least I have fun things to do like attend Amanda’s(Tan) dog, Goldie’s birthday party!! She even asked me to bring Angel along. LOL.

manda says:
omg! u know what joleeennne

manda says:
i found this like doggie chef caterer thingy

manda says:
they make like the CUTEST muffins cookies brownies cakes for dogs!

Miss Lai, you are so happy that Poh Yee has streamyx. Please play webcam with her. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA…

Miss Lai, you are so happy that Poh Yee has streamyx. Please play webcam with her. says:
hahahahahhaha…how much????

manda says:
oooh they’ve got party packages too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

Miss Lai, you are so happy that Poh Yee has streamyx. Please play webcam with her. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA

manda says:
oh the cake is SLIGHTLY lighter than 1kg

manda says:
45bucks

manda says:
so expensive…

manda says:
everyone seems to think it’s amusing ive hosting a bday party for my dog : ( but they all celebrate it every year! with party hats and all..

Miss Lai, you are so happy that Poh Yee has streamyx. Please play webcam with her. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

Miss Lai, you are so happy that Poh Yee has streamyx. Please play webcam with her. says:
how old are they this year?

manda says:
everyone seems to think it’s amusing ive hosting a bday party for my dog     :( but they all celebrate it every year! with party hats and all..

Miss Lai, you are so happy that Poh Yee has streamyx. Please play webcam with her. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

Miss Lai, you are so happy that Poh Yee has streamyx. Please play webcam with her. says:
how old are they this year?

manda says:
ohh that one the monsters, they turned 1 last dec

Miss Lai, you are so happy that Poh Yee has streamyx. Please play webcam with her. says:
hahaha..

Miss Lai, you are so happy that Poh Yee has streamyx. Please play webcam with her. says:
icic..

manda says:
this one’s goldie, their mother, who’s turning 8 this weekend XD

Miss Lai, you are so happy that Poh Yee has streamyx. Please play webcam with her. says:
HAHAHA.wow that’s old

manda says:
yeah she is!
mmm if you bring angel i promise i’ll get her a party pack! XD

Miss Lai, you are so happy that Poh Yee has streamyx. Please play webcam with her. says:
HAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAH

manda says:
whyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   dont la laugh its a bday party ok

Nutty woman.

I want to come home to attend birthday parties….Justin’s one and Goldie’s one. SIGH SIGH SIGH. Come home to be with everybody that I love.